Oh. Hey, 2020

So a funny thing happened. Last year, I tried to login to this wordpress account, somehow could. not. figure it out. And then today, voila! Here I am. Of course, then I realize that I haven’t done anything on this site since 2016…and I wonder why I consistently allow myself to waste all this time. It’s sad, really. I’ll never understand it.

Last year was really, really hard. I mean, really hard. It started off great! I had just finished writing a book at the end of 2018. And then I started a new one that had been sitting in the back of my mind for years. YEARS. I went to Ireland and London with my boyfriend and his family. That was AWESOME. And then, five days after we got back, my aunt very unexpectedly passed away. Nine days after that, my grandma – her mother – passed away.

I finally finished writing the book that I’d started at the beginning of the year, which was great. And then my cousin passed away. And my last remaining grandma passed away the next day. They were not related. It was just a horrifying coincidence.

And I just can’t shake this…frozen feeling. I’ve been super depressed, which obviously makes sense. And I know I need to be kinder to myself. But it’s hard. It’s really hard.

So here I am, trying to get my life together. Again. For the 37th time in the last 14 years. And I’m hoping that I can make something great happen this year.

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